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from me I wrote this in summer of 2022 while studying at library, and titled 'Just a scribble". Actually the fist two paragraphs were wrtitten towards Shelly. Reading this in months, I can feel the worries and depression I had then. Especially the last paragraph makes me so sad. I just lost a way. I know the right direction but not the exact way. You're not that different with me, so I won't ask for a b.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
Ain't It Fun - Paramore I don't mind ์‹ ๊ฒฝ ์•ˆ ์จ letting you down easy but just give it time ๋„ˆ๋ฅผ ์‹ค๋ง์‹œํ‚ค๊ณค ํ•˜์ง€๋งŒ ์‹œ๊ฐ„์ด ํ•„์š”ํ•  ๋ฟ์ด์•ผ If it don't hurt now then just wait just wait a while ์ง€๊ธˆ ํž˜๋“ค์ง€ ์•Š๋‹ค๋ฉด ์กฐ๊ธˆ ๋” ์žˆ์–ด๋ด You're not the big fish in the pond no more ๋„Œ ๋” ์ด์ƒ ์—ฐ๋ชป ์†์˜ ํฐ ๋ฌผ๊ณ ๊ธฐ๊ฐ€ ์•„๋‹ˆ์•ผ You are what they're feeding on ๋„Œ ๊ทธ๋“ค์˜ ๋จน์ด์ผ ๋ฟ So what are you gonna do when the world don't orbit around you ์„ธ์ƒ์ด ๋„ ์ค‘์‹ฌ์œผ๋กœ ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ€์ง€ ์•Š์„ ๋• ์–ด๋–กํ• ๋ž˜? Aint it fun living in the real wo.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
๋ชฝ์ƒ๊ฐ€๋“ค์„ ์œ„ํ•œ ๋…ธ๋ž˜ ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋„ˆ๋ฌด ์ข‹์•„ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์‚ฌ๋“ค ์ด์ง‘ํ•ฉ [ #1. Daydreaming - Paramore ] Living in a city of sleepless people ์ž ๋“ค์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ๋„์‹œ์—์„œ ์‚ด์•„ Who all know the limits and won't go too far outside the lines ์Šค์Šค๋กœ ํ•œ๊ณ„๋ฅผ ์ •ํ•˜๊ณ  ์„ ์„ ๋„˜์œผ๋ ค ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค Cause they're out of their minds ์™œ๋ƒํ•˜๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋“ค์€ ์ •์‹ ์ด ๋‚˜๊ฐ”๊ฑฐ๋“  I wanna get out and build my own home ์—ฌ๊ธธ ๋ฒ—์–ด๋‚˜์„œ ๋‚˜๋งŒ์˜ ์ง‘์„ ์ง“๊ณ  ์‹ถ์–ด On a street where reality is not much different from dreams I've had ๋‚˜์˜ ๊ฟˆ๊ณผ ํ˜„์‹ค์ด ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ ๋‹ค๋ฅด์ง€ ์•Š์€ ๊ฑฐ๋ฆฌ์—.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
Here’s To Never Growing Up - Avril Lavigne ํ•ด์„ ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ํ•ด๋ณธ ๋ฒˆ์—ญ ์ค‘์— ์ œ์ผ ๋งŒ์กฑ์Šค๋Ÿฝ๋‹คโค๏ธ [verse 1] Call up all our friends ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์„ ๋ชจ๋‘ ๋ถ€๋ฅด๊ณ  Go hard this weekend for no damn reason ์ด๋ฒˆ ์ฃผ๋ง์€ ๋ณ„ ์‹œ๋‹ต์ž–์€ ์ด์œ  ์—†์ด ์‹ ๋‚˜๊ฒŒ ๋†€์•„๋ณด์ž (Go hard: ์ œ๋Œ€๋กœ ํ•˜๋‹ค) I don't think we'll ever change ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ ˆ๋Œ€ ๋ณ€ํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š์„ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•„ Meet you at the spot half past ten o'clock ๊ฑฐ๊ธฐ์„œ 10์‹œ ๋ฐ˜์— ๋งŒ๋‚˜! We don't ever stop ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋Š” ์ ˆ๋Œ€ ๋ฉˆ์ถ”์ง€ ์•Š๊ณ  and we're never gonna change ๋˜ํ•œ ๋ณ€ํ•˜์ง€๋„ ์•Š์„ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ [pre-chorus 1] Stay won't you stay forever stay ์˜์›ํžˆ ์—ฌ๊ธฐ ๋‚จ์„.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
Hypersonic Missiles - Sam Fender ์ดˆ์งœ ๋ฒˆ์—ญ ๋ฐฑ์ธ ๋‚จ์„ฑ์œผ๋กœ์„œ ๋ˆ„๋ฆฌ๋Š” ํŠน๊ถŒ์— ๋Œ€ํ•ด ์•Œ๊ณ  ์žˆ๊ณ  ๋˜ ์•ฝ์ž๋“ค์— ํ•ญ์ƒ ๊ด€์‹ฌ์ด ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฐ€์ˆ˜๋ผ๊ณ  ํ•œ๋‹ค. ๋‚˜๋Š” ์•„์˜ˆ ์ฒ˜์Œ ๋“ค์–ด๋ณธ ๊ฐ€์ˆ˜์ธ๋ฐ ์˜๊ตญ ๋ฌด์Šจ ํƒ‘ 100์— ์„ธ ๊ณก์ด๋‚˜ ์˜ฌ๋ ธ๋‹ค๊ณ  ํ•œ๋‹ค. ์š”์ƒˆ ์ฃผ๊ตฌ์žฅ์ฐฝ ๋“ฃ๋Š” Pale Waves๋‚˜ The 1975์™€ ๋งˆ์ฐฌ๊ฐ€์ง€๋กœ ์ด ๋ถ„๋„ ์˜๊ตญ ์ถœ์‹ . The Beatles, Oasis, U2๋Š” ๋ฌผ๋ก ์ด๊ณ  ๋‚˜๋Š” ๋ณธ๋Šฅ์ ์œผ๋กœ ์˜๊ตญ ๋ƒ„์ƒˆ๋ฅผ ๊ฐ์ง€ํ•˜๋‚˜ ๋ณด๋‹ค. Avril Lavigne, Paramore๋ž‘ Third Eye Blind ์ œ์™ธํ•˜๋ฉด ์ง„์งœ ๋‹ค ์˜๊ตญ ๊ทธ๋ฃน. Anyway, ๋ฒˆ์—ญํ•ด ๋ณธ ๊ณก ์ค‘ ์—‰๋ง top 3์ด์ง€ ์•Š์„๊นŒ. ————————————————————— [1์ ˆ ๋ฒŒ์Šค] Dutch kids huff balloons in the parking lot ์ฃผ์ฐจ์žฅ์—์„œ ์›ƒ์Œ ๊ฐ€์Šค๋ฅผ ๋งˆ์‹œ๋Š” ๋„ค๋œ๋ž€๋“œ ์•„์ด๋“ค (20.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
Who Am I - Pale Waves ์ดˆ์งœ ํ•ด์„ ๋ฐฉํ™ฉํ•˜๋ฉฐ ๊ฑด์กฐํ•œ ์ผ์ƒ์„ ์‚ด์•„๊ฐ€๋Š” ์ด๋“ค์—๊ฒŒ ์œ„๋กœ๋ฅผ ์ „ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ณก. Drag my feet off the ground ๋•…์— ๋ฐœ์„ ์งˆ์งˆ ๋Œ๋ฉฐ I'm slowly sinking down ๋‚˜๋Š” ๋Š๋ฆฌ๊ฒŒ ์นจ์ „ํ•˜๊ณ  ์žˆ์–ด I'm having a hard time ํž˜์ด ๋“œ๋„ค I feel trapped, I feel obliged ๊ฐ‡ํžˆ๊ณ  ๊ฐ•์š”๋‹นํ•˜๋Š” ๋Š๋‚Œ์ด์•ผ And where am I supposed to go ๊ฐˆ ๊ณณ์ด ์—†๋‹ค๊ณ  ๋Š๊ปด์งˆ ๋•Œ When I feel like I've got nowhere to go? ๋‚˜๋Š” ์–ด๋””๋กœ ๊ฐ€์•ผํ• ๊นŒ? And how am I supposed to cope? ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ  ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ์ด๊ฒจ๋‚ผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„๊นŒ? When I feel like this, I'm losing every hope ์ด๋Ÿฐ ์ƒ๊ฐ์„ ํ•  ๋•Œ๋งˆ๋‹ค ๋‚˜๋Š” .. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
One More Time - Pale Waves ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๋ฒˆ์—ญํ•ด๋ณธ ๊ฒƒ๋“ค ์ค‘ ๋„ค์ด๋ฒ„์— ํ•ด์„๋ณธ์ด ์˜ฌ๋ผ์™€์žˆ์ง€ ์•Š์•˜๋˜ ๋‘ ๋ฒˆ์งธ ๊ณก. [1์ ˆ] Baby we used to drive in your car ํ•จ๊ป˜ ๋„ค ์ฐจ๋กœ ๋“œ๋ผ์ด๋ธŒ๋ฅผ ํ•˜๊ณค ํ–ˆ์ž–์•„ What happened to us ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์—๊ฒŒ ๋ฌด์Šจ ์ผ์ด ์ผ์–ด๋‚œ ๊ฑธ๊นŒ Yeah we didn't make it very far ๊ทธ๋ž˜ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ๋ณ„๋กœ ์˜ค๋ž˜๊ฐ€์ง€๋Š” ๋ชปํ–ˆ์ง€ I never thought that we would end up like this ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๊ฐ€ ์ด๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋๋‚  ์ค„ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋„ ๋ชป ํ–ˆ์–ด Until you gave me your last kiss ๋„ค๊ฐ€ ๋‚˜์—๊ฒŒ ๋งˆ์ง€๋ง‰ ํ‚ค์Šค๋ฅผ ํ•ด์ฃผ๊ธฐ ์ „๊นŒ์ง€ We slept on the floor all night ๋ฐค์ƒˆ ๋ฐ”๋‹ฅ์—์„œ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ์žค์—ˆ์ž–์•„ I fell in love with you as the sec.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
Black - Pale Waves ์ดˆ์งœ ํ•ด์„ [1์ ˆ] You're beginning to hate me ๋„ค๊ฐ€ ๋‚  ์‹ซ์–ดํ•˜๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ์–ด Of who I'm becoming lately ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ์š”์ƒˆ ๋˜์–ด๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ทธ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ์„ Oh please don't look at me like that ์ œ๋ฐœ ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ณด์ง€ ๋ง์•„ ์ค˜ I feel like I'm having a heart-attack ์‹ฌ์žฅ๋งˆ๋น„๊ฐ€ ์˜ฌ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•„ Don't you say that you don't want me around ๋„ค ๊ณ์— ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ์—†์—ˆ์œผ๋ฉด ์ข‹๊ฒ ๋‹ค๋Š” ๋ง์€ ํ•˜์ง€ ๋งˆ I'm not changing ๋‚œ ๋ณ€ํ•œ ๊ฒŒ ์•„๋‹ˆ์•ผ I'm just waiting to figure myself out ๊ทธ์ € ๋‚ด๊ฐ€ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ์ง€ ์•Œ์•„๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ์ค‘์ด์•ผ You don't love us anymore ๋„Œ ์ด์ œ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ์‚ฌ๋ž‘ํ•˜์ง€.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ