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3์›” 2์ฃผ์ฐจ ์กฐ๊ฐ ๋ชจ์Œ ์‰˜๋ฆฌ๋ž‘ ๋…ผ ๋‹ค์Œ ์ฃผ ์ˆ˜๋ชฉ๊ธˆ์— ๊ฐ‘์ž๊ธฐ ๊ณต๋ถ€๊ฐ€ ์žฌ๋ฐŒ์–ด์ง€๋ฉด์„œ ๋ชจ๋“  ํ•™๋ฌธ ๋ถ„์•ผ๊ฐ€ ํฅ๋ฏธ๋กœ์›Œ์ง€๊ธฐ ์‹œ์ž‘ํ–ˆ๋‹ค. ํŠนํžˆ ์ธ๋ฌธ ์ฒ ํ•™๊ณผ ํ˜„๋Œ€ ์‹œ. eins. Initiative 1. (ํŠน์ •ํ•œ ๋ฌธ์ œ ํ•ด๊ฒฐ, ๋ชฉ์  ๋‹ฌ์„ฑ์„ ์œ„ํ•œ ์ƒˆ๋กœ์šด) ๊ณ„ํš 2. ์ง„์ทจ์„ฑ, ๊ฒฐ๋‹จ๋ ฅ, ์ž์ฃผ์„ฑ 3. ์ฃผ๋„(๊ถŒ) ์•ž์œผ๋กœ ๋‚ด ๋ชจํ† ๋Š” ์ด ํ•œ ๋‹จ์–ด๋กœ ๋๋‚˜... ์ง„ ๋ชปํ•  ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์ง€๋งŒ ํ•œ 50%์˜ ์ง€๋ถ„์€ ์ฃผ๊ฒ ์–ด. zwei. ํ•œ์ฐฝ ๋Œ๋•์งˆ ์—ด์‹ฌํžˆ ํ•  ๋•Œ ๋งค๋ฒˆ ๋ˆˆํŒ…ํ–ˆ๋˜ ๋น„ํˆฌ๋น„ ๋ˆ„๋‚˜ํŒฌ๋ถ„์˜ ๊ธ€. ์ •๋ง ๋งž๋Š” ๋ง์ด๋‹ค. 3๋…„์ด ์ง€๋‚ฌ์ง€๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋•Œ ๋‚˜์˜ ์—ด์ •๊ณผ ํ˜•์šฉ ๋ถˆ๊ฐ€ํ•œ ๊ฐ์ •๋“ค์ด ํ˜„์žฌ์˜ ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ์ง€ํƒฑํ•ด์ฃผ๊ณ  ์žˆ๊ณ , ๋ฏธ๋ž˜์—๋„ ๊ณ„์†๋  ๊ฑฐ๋ผ๊ณ  ํ™•์‹ ํ•œ๋‹ค. ๊ตฟ์ฆˆ์— ์“ด ๋ˆ์€ ์‚ฌ์‹ค ์ข€ ์•„๊น๊ธด ํ•œ๋ฐใ…‹ใ…‹ใ…‹ ์•ˆ ์‚ฌ๊ณ ๋Š” ๋ชป ๋ฐฐ๊ธฐ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ ๋˜... ๊ทธ๋ž˜๋„ ๋ˆ์œผ๋กœ ์‚ด ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ๊ฐ์ •๊ณผ ์ถ”์–ต์„ ๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋„ˆ๋ฌด๋„ˆ๋ฌด ๋งŽ์ด ๋งŒ๋“ค์—ˆ์œผ๋‹ˆ๊นŒ.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
das Heimweh ๋ฌด๋ฆŽ ์•„ํ‹ฐ์ŠคํŠธ ์•„์ด์œ  ์•จ๋ฒ” CHAT-SHIRE ๋ฐœ๋งค์ผ 1970.01.01 ๋ชจ๋‘ ์ž ๋“œ๋Š” ๋ฐค์— ํ˜ผ์ž ์šฐ๋‘์ปค๋‹ˆ ์•‰์•„ ๋‹ค ์ง€๋‚˜๋ฒ„๋ฆฐ ์˜ค๋Š˜์„ ๋ณด๋‚ด์ง€ ๋ชปํ•˜๊ณ ์„œ ๊นจ์–ด์žˆ์–ด ๋ˆ„๊ตด ๊ธฐ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ๋‚˜ ์•„์ง ํ•  ์ผ์ด ๋‚จ์•„ ์žˆ์—ˆ๋˜๊ฐ€ ๊ทธ๊ฒƒ๋„ ์•„๋‹ˆ๋ฉด ๋Œ์•„๊ฐ€๊ณ  ์‹ถ์€ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ์šด ์ž๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ๋– ์˜ฌ๋ฆฌ๋‚˜ ๋ฌด๋ฆŽ์„ ๋ฒ ๊ณ  ๋ˆ„์šฐ๋ฉด ๋‚˜ ์•„์ฃผ ์–ด๋ฆด ์  ๊ทธ๋žฌ๋˜ ๊ฒƒ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋จธ๋ฆฌ์นผ์„ ๋„˜๊ฒจ์ค˜์š” ๊ทธ ์ข‹์€ ์†๊ธธ์— ๊นŒ๋ฌด๋ฃฉ ์ž ์ด ๋“ค์–ด๋„ ์ž ์‹œ๋งŒ ๊ทธ๋Œ€๋กœ ๋‘์–ด์š” ๊นจ์šฐ์ง€ ๋ง์•„์š” ์•„์ฃผ ๊นŠ์€ ์ž ์„ ์ž˜ ๊ฑฐ์˜ˆ์š” ์กฐ์šฉํ•˜๋˜ ๋‘ ๋ˆˆ์„ ๋‹ค์‹œ ๋‚˜์—๊ฒŒ ๋‚ด๋ฆฌ๋ฉด ๋‚˜ ๊ทธ๋•Œ์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ๋ง๊ฐ›๊ฒŒ ์›ƒ์–ด ๋ณด์ผ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ์„๊นŒ ๋‚˜ ์ง€์นœ ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•„ ์ด ์ •๋„๋ฉด ์˜ค๋ž˜ ๋ฒ„ํ‹ด ๊ฒƒ ๊ฐ™์•„ ๊ทธ๋Œ€ ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ณณ์— ๋Œ์•„๊ฐˆ ์ˆ˜ ์žˆ๋Š” ์ง€๋ฆ„๊ธธ์ด ์žˆ๋‹ค๋ฉด ์ข‹๊ฒ ์–ด ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
๋น„๊ด€๊ณผ ๋‚™๊ด€ ์„ธ์ƒ ํ˜น์€ ์‚ถ์„ ์–ผ๋งˆ๋‚˜ ๋น„๊ด€์ ์œผ๋กœ ๋ฐ”๋ผ๋ด์•ผ ํ•˜๋Š”์ง€ ๋ชจ๋ฅด๊ฒ ๋‹ค. ๋งค๋ฒˆ ๊ฐˆํŒก์งˆํŒกํ•œ๋‹ค. ๋ฐ˜๋Œ€๋กœ ํ—ˆํ™ฉ๋œ ๊ฟˆ์„ ๊พธ๋ฉฐ ์‚ฌ๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ์„ฑ๊ณตํ•œ๋‹ค๋˜๋ฐ, ๋‚˜๋Š” ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ๊ฟˆ์€ ๊ฟ”๋ณธ ์ ์ด ์—†๋‹ค. ์„ธ์ƒ์—๋Š” ์‹ค๋ง ๋ง๊ณ ๋Š” ํ•  ๊ฒŒ ์—†๊ณ  ๋‚˜๋Š” ์ˆ˜๊ธ ๋ง๊ณ ๋Š” ํ•  ๊ฒŒ ์—†๋‹ค. ๋‚˜๋Š” ์•ž์œผ๋กœ โ€˜ํ—ˆ์šฉ๋œโ€™ ๋ฒ”์œ„ ์•ˆ์˜ ๊ฟˆ๋งŒ ๊พธ๋ฉฐ ์‚ด์ง€ ์•Š์„๊นŒ? ๋‚˜์˜ ๊ฟˆ์€ ๋ˆ„๊ตฐ๊ฐ€์—๊ฒŒ๋Š” ํƒ๋„ ์—†๋Š”, ํ—ˆ๋ฌด๋งน๋ž‘ํ•œ ์ผ์ด๊ฒ ์ง€๋งŒ, ํ˜น์ž๋Š” ๋‚˜์—๊ฒŒ ๋” ํฐ ๊ฟˆ์„ ๊ฟ”๋ณด๋ผ๊ณ  ๋งํ•˜๊ฒ ์ง€. ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์€ ์ดˆ๋‚™๊ด€์ฃผ์˜์ž๋“ค์ผ ๊ฑฐ์•ผ. ๋‚˜๋„ ๋น„ํ–‰์„ ํ•ด๋ณด๊ณ  ์‹ถ๋‹ค. ์ €๊ณต๋น„ํ–‰๋„ ์•„๋‹Œ, ๊ฐœ๋ฏธ๋“ค์ฒ˜๋Ÿผ ์ง€ํ•˜๋ฅผ ํ—ค์ง‘๊ณ  ๋‹ค๋‹ˆ๋Š” ์‚ถ์€ ์‹ ๋ฌผ ๋‚˜. ์ฐจ๊ทผ์ฐจ๊ทผ ๋น„ํ–‰ ๊ณ ๋„๋ฅผ ๋†’์—ฌ๋ด์•ผ์ง€. ๋‚˜์˜ ๊ฟˆ์„ ๋“ฃ๊ณ  ์–ด๋–ป๊ฒŒ ๊ทธ๋Ÿฐ ๊ฟˆ์„ ๊พธ๋ƒ๋ฉฐ ๋†€๋ผ๋Š” ๋ฐ˜์‘์ด ๋‚˜์˜ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ๋žŒ๋“ค์ด ๋‚ด ์ง€์ธ์˜ ๋Œ€๋ถ€๋ถ„์ด๊ธฐ ๋•Œ๋ฌธ์—. ํ•œ์ฐฝ ๋ณ„์„ ํ–ฅํ•ด ํ™”์‚ด์„ ์  ๋‚˜์ด์ธ ์Šค๋ฌด ์‚ด์— ๋Œ€.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
์žฌ์ˆ˜ ํŒŒ์ดํŒ…!! Ich kann das! Maybe I do have a doubt but Iโ€™m certain that Iโ€™ll make it eventually. I have loving families and friends who always care for me and will help me cope with all the struggles. I thank every single person who have given me courage and inspired me to really live a โ€˜lifeโ€™. Normally I would have solved it by myself but Iโ€™m having a hard time these days so.. Sometimes the existence of a p.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
์ข‹์•„ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์‚ฌ๋“ค ๋ชจ์Œ 2 ๋ฒˆ์—ญ/ํ•ด์„ ์ถœ์ฒ˜: ์œ ํŠœ๋ธŒ ์•„๋ฝ๋Œ“ ํŠนํžˆ ๋งˆ์Œ์— ๋“œ๋Š” ๊ฐ€์‚ฌ๋Š” ํŒŒ๋ž€์ƒ‰์œผ๋กœ ๊ฐ•์กฐํ•จ! ์›๋ž˜๋Š” ๊ฐ€์‚ฌ๋“ค๋งŒ ๋ณต๋ถ™ํ•˜๊ณ  ๋๋‚ด๋ ค๊ณ  ํ–ˆ๋Š”๋ฐ ์ง€์ธ์˜ ๋ธ”๋กœ๊ทธ๋ฅผ ๋ณด๊ณ  ์ž๊ทน๋ฐ›์•„ ๋ช‡ ์ž ๋” ์จ๋ณด๊ฒ ์Œ. 1๏ธโƒฃ Give yourself a try - The 1975 You learn a couple things when you get to my age ๋‚ด ๋‚˜์ด ์ •๋„๊ฐ€ ๋˜๋ฉด ๋ช‡ ๊ฐ€์ง€๋ฅผ ๋ฐฐ์šฐ๊ฒŒ ๋  ๊ฑฐ์•ผ Like friends donโ€™t lie and it all tastes the same in the dark ์นœ๊ตฌ๋“ค์€ ๊ฑฐ์ง“๋งํ•˜์ง€ ์•Š๊ณ , ์–ด๋‘  ์†์—์„œ๋Š” ์ „๋ถ€ ๊ฐ™์€ ๋ง›์ด ๋‚œ๋‹ค๋Š” ์‚ฌ์‹ค ๊ฐ™์€ ๊ฑฐ ๋ง์ด์•ผ (์˜๊ตฌ์ ์ธ ๊ฐ€์น˜๋ฅผ ์ง€๋‹ˆ๊ณ  ์žˆ๋Š” ๊ฒƒ๋“ค์— ๋Œ€ํ•œ ์•”์‹œ) When your vinyl and your coffee collection is a sign o.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ
from me I wrote this in summer of 2022 while studying at library, and titled 'Just a scribble". Actually the fist two paragraphs were wrtitten towards Shelly. Reading this in months, I can feel the worries and depression I had then. Especially the last paragraph makes me so sad. I just lost a way. I know the right direction but not the exact way. You're not that different with me, so I won't ask for a b.. ๋”๋ณด๊ธฐ